Sleep Deprivation Dream?

I was in my bed, dying of sleep deprivation. They told me that as soon as I fell asleep, I was going to die. I had to keep myself awake. Looking around my room, even with the lights off I could see the gathering of people watching me drift into my death. With my eyelids heavy and my eyes in pain, I jumped out of bed and tried to move my body out of my room and into the bathroom. I couldn't open my eyes enough to even see where I was going. I finally made it to the bathroom, but my body was slowly becomming paralyzed as I collapsed onto the floor. I tried to use the toilet to pick myself back up but I couldn't move a muscle. As I was grabbing onto the toilet, I almost dropped my sister's phone into it. I moved my upper body to stop it. Then, I realize I had to say goodbye to someone. "Ricky! Ricky!" I started yelling. "I need to say goodbye to Ricky!"
I searched the bathroom with my eyes for my cell phone. It was nowhere. I leaned over the toilet and there it was: at the bottom of my toilet was my cell phone.
"This can't be happening," I thought.
At that point, the toilet started spinning. I don't mean it was flushing. The actual toilet was spinning in circles. Then, the entire room spun in circles. I felt myself floating upwards, out of my body, now watching myself in the bathroom, rather than seeing the dream from my own point of view. I watched myself and the bathroom and the house spin.
Dizzy, I slowly woke up, confused. My eyes still felt glued shut. My body still seemed motionless. And I was scared out of my mind.


I think if I keep continuing to tell people my dreams, I'll lose all of my friends because people will think I'm a crazy person.

I would rather sleep on the floor with the lights on

than in my bed with the lights off. I spend more time on the floor of my room than I do anywhere else. It's not even that comfortable. The floor is hard, my carpet is itchy and my room is a mess, however every single day when I come home from school, one of the first things I do is curl up in a ball on my floor in front of my space heater and fall into a deep, sound sleep without even trying. If I got into my bed and tried to do this, I probably wouldn't fall asleep at all. I'm on the hard floor of my room right now, laying on my stomach, chin to the itchy carpet listening to a song that I don't like playing from my iTunes on my computer a few feet away from me. I would get up to check the IM I just got and change the song, but I'm too comfortable. I think I'll take a nap instead.

I had a good feeling about December.

If so many good things happen at once, will there eventually be a downfall? And if so, when?

I'd like to mentally prepare for mine. I've never felt so happy.

The fate of all "Cats"

Happy Thanksgiving

I'm having a food baby.

Today...

I sent in three PostSecrets. (http://postsecret.blogspot.com/)
I finally bought Into The Wild.
I watched (and loved) Good Will Hunting.
I resolved some history issues.
And after seeing the devastating terrorist attack taking place in India playing on my television in my kitchen at 5:00 today as I was leaving my house to go out to dinner with my best friend, buy a book and watch a movie, I did a lot of thinking. (That was a really long run-on on purpose.)

"In order for things to change, YOU have to change. We can't change others; we can only change ourselves. However, when WE change, it changes everything. And in doing so, we truly can be the change we want to see in the world."

I used to have this thing called a "Photoblog"

It was a blog...that you posted photos on. The website advertised a concept called "Photoblog 365" or something like that and the idea was to post at least one picture a day for 365 days. I tried it and lasted about a month, which was no surprise.

Anyway, I like blogging and being random, so I decided to separate this from my English blog so I could just let out my thoughts. I think I wanna try to carry the 365 idea over. Maybe I can make a post every day for 365 days (yeah right). It's worth a try.

Anyway, here's my post for today:

Last night, I had a weird dream. I went to see a show with my mom. We couldn't find any seats. We looked around the entire theater looking for someplace to sit, but we found no two seats together. I suggested that we leave the theater. As we walked outside, I called my best friend Anna. I told her to come meet up with me. We met up in the cold parking lot outside of the theater. As we walked around, we decided we would go to the city. She had to use the bathroom before we went, so we walked over to a building. We passed an open field with animals, all cylinder shaped, running in place. It was weird.

"We used to come here when we were four years old!" she said.

"Yeah, you're right! I just realized," I replied.

We kept walking and made it to the building. Inside was a huge line for the bathroom.

"Can't you just wait until we get to the city?" I asked.

She couldn't wait and got in line. I was waiting for her when a girl came over to me. She brought me into a room and started fighting with me, yelling at me and hitting me. I fought her back until she told me to stop and she walked away. I told Anna that we had to leave. We walked out the side entrance of the building and there was the girl again...this time, with my history teacher. She told me she was "sorry for the way things turned out before" and I told her that I was sorry she's such a mean person. That's when she moved out of the way and let my history teacher take over.

From there, he began yelling at me, telling me I was worthless because I'm so terrible at history.

"You're actually my worst student. I can't even grade your papers," he said. "I just don't know what to do with you! You have the lowest grade in the class. You shouldn't even be here!"

And then, he started doing backflips.

Right there outside the building, he was doing backflips in his gray suit, still going on about history and my poor grades.

And then I woke up.

And fell back asleep.

And dreamt that I took a 15-page history test and got everything right. Yet still got a B.

And then I woke up. Again.

But I haven't really woken up. This dream was just an illusional view of my reality.

My friends got a kick out of it.

My mom is worried.

My teacher? I don't think he really grasped the underlying message here.

"...No longer to be poisoned by civilization he flees, and walks alone upon the land to become lost in the wild."

"So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun." -Christopher McCandless

After I read the book (that I'm STILL waiting on), Walden and some Jack London, I'm climbing Mt. McKinley.

i like animals

but not cats.

it's 2:30 AM on saturday night

what am I doing with my life...